[Bible Question] Please help. I’ve had a lot of personal “Christian” experiences. I’ve been taught a lot on holiness and know my Bible well – I’ve never learned to kill the flesh. My husband is right that we are not Christians. We are Christianeze. We only listen to godly music and monitor what comes into our home, although loosely. I know the difference between the sand and the rock teachings and don’t accept most teachers as true – I have 82 people on facebook who I have listed as Christians, but when I look for fruit, I think maybe 5 of them might be. I hear depart from me – my mouth is out of control, and I lash out so quickly with my children. I used to say I thought I was demon possessed for I truly feel like I have no control of myself. Pastors chuckle nervously and pat me on the head, now now sister, you can’t be possessed only oppressed. they don’t know what comes out of me. I know I don’t have the same battles as I did years ago, but it was a long process to get those things out. I need help now. This isn’t acceptable. I’m about to turn 38 and first met the Lord at 11-12. Several times I have deliberately made the decision to walk away from God. I need Him so bad. I don’t know what do. I beg Him for His Spirit, for repentance, for Him to show me… please help. Thank you.
[Bible Answer] Greetings in Jesus’ name. Please know you feed your flesh through the wrong thoughts you entertain. The devil and this world system are always ready to help with this too! TV is the devil’s greatest tool, with secular music being a close second! The battlefield is the mind. From the mind it goes to the mouth:
You brood of vipers, how can you who are evil say anything good? For out of the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks. The good man brings good things out of the good stored up in him, and the evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in him. But I tell you that men will have to give account on the day of judgment for every careless word they have spoken. For by your words you will be acquitted, and by your words you will be condemned. (Mat 12:34-37)
To overcome, you must fill your mind with wholesome thoughts, such as the spiritual truths found in the Bible. God’s eternal truths will wash out the filth you have been pondering. STOP watching TV, porn, etc. and listening to all secular music. Read and memorize Scripture. Ponder this:
Those who live according to the sinful nature have their minds set on what that nature desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires. The mind of sinful man is death, but the mind controlled by the Spirit is life and peace (Rom 8:5,6)
You can control yourself in the Lord, but you must first get saved. A general characteristic of the real Christian is:
Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the sinful nature with its passions and desires. (Gal 5:24)
Please know that even IF you do have a demon (or demons) they can’t stop you from coming to Jesus for deliverance and salvation (Mark 5:1-9). You must get DEAD SERIOUS about following Jesus and serving God. You can’t play around anymore, especially in your condition. IF friends, family or places you are going are snaring you, then appropriate changes need to be made there too. You are battling for ETERNITY. NOTHING is more important! Your SOUL is your greatest possession! GUARD THE THOUGHTS YOU ENTERTAIN and be S-L-O-W TO SPEAK:
If anyone considers himself religious and yet does not keep a tight rein on his tongue, he deceives himself and his religion is worthless. (James 1:26)
My dear brothers, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, for man’s anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires. (James 1:19,20)
Many people, much worse than you have been miraculously saved. How bad do you want eternal life?